The Dawning
It goes without saying that this year was — well, less than stellar. It was stressful, angst-filled, frustrating, disappointing, hateful, and just downright sad for people and this country. We have now embarked on a new journey, you and I, and it will be one with determined outlook for a better, more improved awakening. I for one, have jetted to that finish line. Look, I know it’s still going to be a difficult transition. In all honesty it’s gonna take a while to heal from what’s happened in this torrid year, but just as we stuck together to get through it, so shall we go forth and conquer with the growth we’ve obtained.
The energy is about to shift and I don’t know if it’s because the Age of Aquarius is upon us or if it’s because it’s time for our next Age of Enlightenment. I think we’ve learned a lot in these 12 months. We learned what’s toxic. We learned how to be there for others. We learned how important connection is. And we learned to wake up. I for one had my trials this year. There is no mistaking that our time here in the vicissitudes of life is inevitable. We all experience it, but to experience it in the climate we are currently in, has been more than an obstacle. I’ve learned a whole lot about the world and myself. I learned how to power binge streaming television. I learned that comfortable pants and no bras can be ultimate freedom. I learned that my partner and I had some issues to work out. I learned that I like my space. I realized that small misunderstandings for some people can ruin a friendship if you don’t take the time to listen and talk it out. I really hated going to funerals more than I already do. I learned how to play chess and got real creative with my job. So what’s my plan for next year?
I, as always, don’t do resolutions. I like to do manifestations that bring me to better milestones. I have realized this year that my biggest fault is that I cannot say NO. I also take on people’s shit way too much. I want to be there for people, but learned this past year it was hurting me physically and mentally. So, that being said, here are the things I’ll be working on this year:
For Pete’s Sake Stop Apologizing! I tend to apologize way too much for things I cannot control or things that are other people’s issues. Sometimes, there is nothing you can do and other people need to work out their crap.
Exit the Toxic Relationships. I’ve realized that if someone is not going to throw down the gauntlet for me or wants to judge me without an exchange of communicative expressions as to why I’ve upset them, I don’t need them. This whole “#squadgoals” bullshit is not in my wheelhouse. My zero fucks given has finally arrived.
Get Mad. In recent years I’ve been bottling up this necessary emotion to save other people from wrath-like expressions. I’ve learned it’s hurt me. Getting mad is part of the healing process. It’s ok to be mad and express that.
More Walking, Get Talking. I’ve really loved catching up with people especially my family when I go on my daily walks. It has brought me closer to them I feel. You get so much more across when you have a meaningful and genuine chat with someone.
Take It, Like you stole it! Every year a grandiose idea conjures up and every year I get excited and passionate. And every year —it fizzles into nothingness. I feel like this year has a kinda follow your dream aspect to it and for once I want to follow through!
Spreading Myself too Thin. I have a tendency to say yes to everything and for my well being, that needs to stop for sure. I end up taking on way more than I humanly can and the multitasking and accountability becomes unbearable. So this year, I’m going to take things one step at a time and within my limits.
We are now in a new phase of this lifetime and I’m going to make the most I can of it. I know I need to get to writing more as I’ve slacked off in the past year. So, here we go people. Take my hand, it’s going to be a wild ride!